
#i love the sweat on his forehead in this shot #how you can see the physical toll this all took on him #and still he said nothing #just stared into the darkness and took it until he got what he wanted #i also just love how reckless he gets when sherlock is in his sights #for so long he was the consulting criminal #the spider at the center of the web who did little himself #only planned #but for sherlock he throws himself out there #physically and all #and it’s so fucking risky and reckless and unlike him #so unlike the cold distance it took to drown carl powers via his eczema cream #it makes me emotional how he closes the distance that characterizes his career when he approaches sherlock #and the slips away from his usual cool calculations just gesture towards the fact that he’s ready to die #sherlock is the exception and the hope of release from everything #dlkgmdfg i’m so glad sherlock redeemed himself in moriarty’s eyes in the end #i don’t know what he would have done if sherlock had just been another of life’s disappointments #ugh it’s not just that he wanted to die #he wanted to die knowing sherlock was HIS LIKENESS HIS HELP HIS OTHER SELF #(that was a paradise lost quote sorry i’m not over the adam-and-eve thing yet) #the final problem was as much about loneliness as it was about staying alive imo #he needed both to be solved and sherlock was the possibility of both for him #this fucking character #this fucking ship #this fucking life #end me now.
(Source: ourfinalproblem)
I think most of the toll came from being dead bored the entire time he was in prison. What we saw of the torture scene...